I can't believe I am here again...

Why? Why am I asking that question again?! Why?

Why didn't I just shifted to that effing course before?! I just hate this...I need to talk to someone...I really need to...

I just...I'm just so lost I can't think anymore...I just want to give up...

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Why can't life have a fast forward button? Things would be so much easier if it did. Fast forward the decision making and go to the instant where you finally decided and have no regrets and the headache of thinking things through...

Why can life be easier...

I really don't know anymore...I really just wanna stay at home forever and write and write and write...can I just do that?

Of course I bloody hell can't because people have to be practical and work to earn money for a living. To sustain life and pay bills and those complete nonsense...

Yes, I would consider those garbage and the things I write about, I love like TV shows and books not garbage because they are the real treasures and not bills, bank accounts...

What makes you happy are the real treasure...

I really don't know anymore...