When everything hits you...

I guess this was what Braggy was feeling during our Xmas party last year.

I texted my editor-in-chief, Patrick, how sorry I was that I won’t be able to help with an article tomorrow as I had previously promised last Monday because of requirements I need to accomplish if I want to to continue to study internationally on September.

I was in DLSU earlier but wasn’t able to see Patrick at all because I really needed to tell him that I can’t come to school anymore because of helping out at my uncle’s company. And when he replied tonight that it was ok and the usual “toh naman” and imagining him saying it. I started to tear up.

It wasn’t just not being able to go to school tomorrow but not able to go to Braggy’s party tomorrow night that’s been nagging me.

I suddenly realized that I won’t be seeing this people everyday, when I’ve gotten used to them for the past year or so working for TLS. I then realized that I’m gonna miss them terribly. It’s not just about graduation, but not being able to hear the stories, to hang-out in the office, to work on articles…

I’m going to miss these people.

It’s funny how I’ve been a member of the USG for my entire stay in DLSU and TLS for half of it and yet I feel so sad leaving TLS. (I’m still crying right now.)

I’m inside my room, blasting music, so that my parents won’t notice that I’m sobbing like someone just broke my heart because a group of people just did. Well technically it’s my fault for leaving.

It’s going to be me reminiscing about all those times I had to climb up the 5 flights of stairs just to reach that noisy, filled with joy and laughter office that would instantly grow silent when Sir Randy or Ate Ella knocks on the door. The room where you can never actually accomplish anything because you’re too busy laughing at someone’s story or joke or acting skills. The couch where newbies would sit and eventually an editor or an older staffer would approach them and get them to talk.

I’m going to miss those days…I’m going to miss TLS so much that it’s basically breaking my heart. These are the people I could always turn to, the people who actually made my life in La Salle worth while. These are the best people you’ll ever meet and if you’re a Lasallian reading this, come June join because the best people you’ll ever meet in your lifetime will be these people.

TLS, I never thought you’d do this me, turn me into an emotional wreck. I love you and I will miss you and I just wish I didn’t have to leave but I do. And I join another publication in the future, one publication will forever have a place in my heart and that’s the bastion of issue-oriented critical thinking, The La Sallian.